I'm angry about a lot of things this week, but mostly about what has happened to my beautiful friend P.
A few years ago, she found the love of her life, B, the one that completed her. Over the last year, B has had several medical issues, but he was finally better, back working the job that he loved. Shortly after he started getting better, P's ex-husband, the father of her child, committed suicide. This was not a surprise to anyone, sadly. B held P and helped her get through this horrible time.
They were getting a house and going to move in together in the next few months. They were planning their wedding for January.
Sunday, P found B, dead. It was a suicide.
HOW THE FUCK DO YOU DO THAT TO SOMEONE WHEN YOU'VE PERSONALLY SEEN HOW IT AFFECT THEM??????
I know this a rhetorical question, and there are no answers. Right now my beautiful friend is still numb, and on one level she knows this wasn't personal, but on another level, there is no room for rationality. Both of the only men she's ever loved in her life has decided that death is better than living.
Not to mention what this has done to his children, and her child (who has now lost TWO fathers to suicide, in the same year!)
If B wasn't already dead, I'd kill him myself for what he's done to his family.