It's so weird. People keep checking with me to make sure we're okay after Friday's fire and shooting and then saying how 'sad' it all is.
It wasn't fucking sad! It was scary and tragic, and pissed me off!
Being told that my kids are in a school on lock down and I can't get them if I want is frightening and stressful. Not sad.
Having fire trucks and police blocking of the street two blocks away,
therefore causing all sorts of unexpected traffic issues (and
preventing me from getting to my kids' school) is obnoxious and scary,
Knowing that if I'd left the house 30 minutes sooner
(or the shooter started 30 minutes later) my life and my family's lives
could be drastically altered doesn't make me sad, it scares the shit out
We're fine. The kids are fine (they had a boring
afternoon, unlike me). I'm extremely grateful for how alive we all are.
Just don't call it 'sad'.